We always assumed it was just her personal habit.
Every evening at exactly 7 o’clock, Grandma Ina pours herself a glass of wine—always using the same green goblet, sitting in the same worn chair—no matter where she is. It doesn’t matter if it’s a birthday party, a storm warning, or if she’s feeling ill. That glass of wine is always poured.
She’s 105 now—still sharp-minded, still stubborn, still giving me a judging look with one raised eyebrow and a sip of her wine.
Last night, it was just the two of us alone in the living room. Quiet. The kind of quiet that makes people say things they usually keep to themselves.
So I asked her, “Why do you do it? The wine—what’s it really about?”
She stopped, the glass halfway to her lips. For a moment, I thought she hadn’t heard me. Then she gently set the goblet down and looked at me like she was deciding whether to reveal something she’d kept hidden for years.
“Do you really want to know?” she asked, her voice softer and more vulnerable than usual.
I nodded. I’d always wondered. The routine had been comforting—the way she always drank her wine at 7 p.m., in the same chair, letting out a quiet, almost unnoticed sigh. It was part of who she was, part of our family’s rhythm. But last night, the question felt urgent.
Grandma Ina leaned back and stared at the ceiling, as if searching for memories floating somewhere up there.
“You might not like what I’m about to say,” she warned, her voice trembling under the weight of the years.
“I’m listening,” I said, unsure but eager to understand.
She took a deep breath and gripped the stem of her glass. “It all started when I was your age—young and hopeful. I had a future planned, dreams, ambitions, and a man I loved named Henry.”
I’d never heard her speak about Henry before. She usually shared stories about family events, holidays, or funny moments from her past, but this was different—this was new.
She sighed, her gaze far away. “Henry and I were supposed to be happy. We thought we’d have it all—good jobs, a home, children. But things didn’t go as planned. Henry wasn’t as strong as I believed. He had a temper—and that temper led to things I can never forget.”
I felt a tightening in my chest. I knew Grandma Ina had faced hardships, but not this.
She gathered herself and continued, “He began drinking—at first just the occasional whiskey, but soon it was every day. It wasn’t just the alcohol; it was the anger. It was chaos, and I didn’t know how to fix it or how to save myself.”
I stayed quiet, knowing this was a deeply personal story.
“One night, he came home drunk and furious over something trivial—I can’t even remember what. But I remember his eyes, the way he slammed the door and yelled at me. That night, he hit me for the first time—not just a slap, but a punch.”
I gasped, heart breaking for the woman who always seemed so strong and invincible.
She gave a faint smile, eyes misty with sadness. “I didn’t know what to do or how to leave him. But I knew I couldn’t stay in that environment. So, like many desperate women, I stayed silent. I pretended everything was fine. But every night, I poured myself a glass of wine—not because I liked it, but because it numbed the pain, helped me forget even for a little while.”
Her words felt heavy, and I realized she’d carried this secret for decades. And now, sitting beside her, I was hearing a painful, raw part of her past.
“But that wasn’t the worst part,” she said quickly, as if the floodgates had opened. “The worst part was what happened after I started drinking. I didn’t leave. I couldn’t. I told myself it was for the family, for our son Sam. But really, I was just too scared to face life without him, even though I knew he was no good for me.”
My heart broke for her—the strength it must have taken to endure that life. I thought about her later years—their toughness, independence—and realized it all grew from years of quiet suffering.
“Only after we separated did I realize what had happened. The wine wasn’t just a crutch; it had become a part of me. I used it to survive the darkest times. But I didn’t see that I had become dependent on it, just like Henry depended on his drinking. I wasn’t any better.”
She paused, regret filling her eyes. “I didn’t know how to stop or let go of what had kept me going for so long. It became a ritual—a comfort. That’s why I’ve had a glass every night since. Not because I need it now, but because it reminds me of who I was back then—reminds me of my strength. Each sip is a reminder that I survived, that I made it through the worst.”
I didn’t know what to say. My grandmother had held on to something for 80 years as a symbol of survival and strength. Now, I finally understood why that wine was so important. It wasn’t just a habit; it was reclaiming control in a world that often took it away.
“But Grandma,” I whispered, “you don’t need it anymore. You’re strong enough now.”
She smiled softly—the kind of smile earned through hardship. “I know, dear. But sometimes, we keep things because they remind us of who we were. And sometimes, because they’re all we have left. Even if we don’t need them anymore, letting go isn’t easy.”
I nodded, realizing life isn’t always what it seems. We don’t always see the hidden struggles people carry, the quiet battles fought daily. Sometimes the simplest rituals carry the heaviest weight.
Grandma Ina and I sat quietly for a while, the evening settling into peace. For the first time, I truly understood her. The family’s rock, the one we all relied on, had her own hidden scars. But through it all, she survived—and lived.
Before I went to bed, she looked at me with a sparkle in her eye. “You’re right. I don’t need the wine anymore. But it’s been part of me for so long. Maybe one day I’ll let it go. For now, it stays. It’s part of my story. We all need our stories.”
As I left her room, I realized how important it is to honor our past, no matter how hard it is. Sometimes what we carry isn’t just about survival—it’s about remembering where we came from so we can appreciate how far we’ve come.
If you’re holding onto something from your past that’s been with you a long time, know it’s okay. You don’t have to let go all at once. But you have the strength to move forward, even if it takes time.
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